Dating and religion

This is something that I have been dealing with lately. I have been told that your dating relationship should glorify God and there are some boundaries that God gives his people.

  Spiritual  Relationship Principle  

• Be considerate of one another. Do not be a stumbling block 1 corinthians 10:32-33
• Go on dates with doubles; home before midnight; Dress appropriately
• Be absolutely pure -Ephesians 5:3/ 1 Timothy 5:2 
• Get Advice- Proverbs 19:2/19:20   

  Here is something that I want you to think about this as you are reading this most person with a disability get help from the government so along with that comes some guidelines that we have to adhere to when working in order to keep out finical and health befits giving to us by the government. Now I know most of you know but if you don't I am a woman who is physically disabled. I have been disabled my whole life. I have always believed and still do believe in God. I am currently in a dating relationship with a man who is also physically disabled. Now you all are wondering why am mentioning this?  Before I have people commenting and saying that there is no exception to what parts of God's instructions I as his daughter shouldn't follow. I want you all to keep in mind that no two walks with God would look the same. Now for those of you who don't have anyone in your life with a physical disability life can be more challenging. I have been blessed in the sense that I am mentally able to learn and think for myself and the same for my boyfriend.  Now to give you a bit a background Me and my boyfriend meet in college, we dated one year and then took a break for a year because he wanted to grow spiritually which happen in 2017 Then a year later he decides to ask me to be his girlfriend again in 2018. We have now been disciples for three years and we have been dating while being followers of Jesus for two years. I have the desire to someday be married.    

What  I struggle with when it comes to my faith and my dating relationship is that I have been told by other believers is that before my dating relationship moves to the next stages is that there needs to be finical stability which I understand why is said but I also wish the actual reality of what my life is like is taking into account. It is a challenge to get employed but, that doesn't mean that I stop looking for a job. I have been told that I am not able to drive so that means that I would have to use public transportation to get around. I wonder how is that someone who has a physical disability gets finical stable. when we are looked we are atomically judged just on our physical appearance and not given a chance to showcase our skills?  

 

Hard times

It has not been easy for me. I have had so many changes happen over the last few months.I have been trying my hardest to keep my feeling under control. I feel like I have lost a really good friend.I feel like he was my spiritual support. Now I have been trying to see if I can reconnect with him. I am not really having much luck with that. Losing a love one is not easy everyone knows that. I have lost my farther which was not the easy thing for me to handle. I am still struggling with til this day. I am sure that this is always going to be a hard thing for me to come to terms with. I still catch myself breakdown over it. I know most people see me as the girl who always has a smile on her face. Smiling is just my way of hiding all the pain. I am truly grateful for those who have been there for through all of this.

I have been getting out a lot more now. I have some good experience I have been apart of Ms. Wheelchair Texas. I never saw myself being a part of something like this. Over all I am glad I did it. Well I guess I am done blogging for tonight. I hope you all have a bless night.

Love you

We have had are ups and downs. I can't deny what my heart feels for you. you are always on my mind.We have hurt each otherbut, all has been forgiven. Everything that I have told up til this day was true.I sit in my room missing you and just going through all of our memories. It just hurts me knowing that you are in a relationship.

You were there when I need you the most .I remember that night I called you in tears after I had been hit by my farther for coming home late.You always would find a way to make me smile even though I didn't want to.You still tell me that Love me.I am truely sorry that I cause so much pain. I guess if you are truly happy in the relationship that your in now I will accept it even thought it kills me.

Second Thoughts

In your life time you go through so much. There are times that people you know even people in your family tell you that you need to let go of some people in your life. You are the only that can make the call for yourself. Its your life your are free to mess up because that is how lessons are learn. One most important thing that I have learn is when you have a long relationship with someone they are not that easy to forget about. It all depends how close you get to that person. If you let that person know your really dark secrets you will always feel a connection with that person.

It make it hard to get over that person if you see that peson almost everyday. So at this point am single and just let all this play out the way God wants to because I am not a type of person to froce anyone to be with me.Only God knows who is right for me. I just have to sit back and let God lead me down the path he has set before me

This year

This year is coming to an end. I can't help but to sit here and look back on everything I been throught this whole year. School has been going okay. A year relationship coming to end. My father is not around.
and just alot of emotions break downs.
 
Most people tell me to let all the pain go but it's not that easy.
Everything that I been though has affect me in both a good and bad way.
If I told half the things that I been through you wouldn't believe it.

Most of time i just hide my pain because I know that is never really going to away.
For those who I been open with know what am talking about.
Now I am not writing this so people can start feeling sorry I  am writing this to show that no matter what am put throught I will always mange to still keep on to reach my dream.

Can you ever get rid of pain

As I sit here I think to myself  what can I do to get rid of the emotional pain that people in my life have cause. I don't think anyone can ever  really get rid of the pain much less forget. All we can is just forgive and move on with life. My view is if someone cause you pain just forgive them and allow that pain to make you a stronger person. There is someone out in this world for everyone no  matter if you are able body or if you are disability. I think so many people are focus on appearance when they need to  be focus on the inner person. If  someone can't see you for the person that you are then honestly they don't deserve to be in your life period,   

An update for my readers

I hope everyone is having a good i know that some of you having been waiting a while for me to blog. I just have been busy with my classes and job training. I would like to think everyone who believe in me from day one. If it wasn't for you I would have not made it this far.Since my last blog not much has change am still a collage student. I still have fights with my parents. yes am still living at home. But i am working on finding a way out. My interest have not change am still an inspire writer as you can all tell. I also want to thank Mr. Max Torres God rest his soul for helping me get my own blog page started. many people ask me why do I have a blog page if not a lot people read it? My answer to that is "The reason I have it because I have high hopes that someone may come across it and may want to publish my work. THANK you to all my readers!! I love you all

Some thing to think about

We as humans often think that we only need to dress our physical bodies But let us not forget that we must at all time dress our spiritual bodies as well. Do not to ashamed to speak of your wrong doing. We all have done something wrong in our lives at one point or other. You must know that we have a heavenly farther that knows us inside and out. He knows when his childern have done wrong but, he is also our forgiving farther! Never be afraid to confess your wrong doing to the lord.

Feeling out of place

I like am out of place within my family. Things happen in my family that have affected my life in a negtive way. I often feel like most of the fighting that goes on in my household is in same way do what ever I do. I often feel like I have failed my parents in some way. I always seem to ask myself " AM I every going to do anything right for my parent?" but then ? I remind myself that am doing for me to make me a better person and to become a strong person.

when is it enough

I often wonder how can you be in a relationship and feel like that relationship is hurting you rather then helping you become a better person. why is it that some people don't want to see throught thier partner eyes. I guess in life I NEVER really had someone to care for me as this person who shall remain nameless dose but, I feel like we spend most our time fighting then anything else. I understand that he wants to be helpful but sometimes I think he over dose it. There are times that I wonder how did i let myself get cought up in something like this ? How can i help this person relize how what he dose affect me ?

What I live with

In life there are people that make you feel like you are nothing other people might tell you that you need to get away from them but,what if you can't get away from them because they are your own family memebers. This might come as a suprise to the few people who read this blog Ilive in a house where my morther gets abuse by my farther and my father has a drug habit that he can't control . When he is ask why dose he use the drugs to begin with his reply is " I use them becuse they help me relax when me and your mom argue " He says that he can stop using if he really wants to but i dont think he can because his body is use to the way it feels when he dose the drug so two questions remain 1)How do you help some one who dosen't want any but badly needs it? 2)how do you help someone who wants and needs help but is afriad to ask for any?

***** In memory of the columbine who were lost*****

Mommy.. Johnny brought a gun to school,He told his friends that it was cool,And when he pulled the trigger back,It shot with a great crack.Mommy, I was a good girl, I did What I was told,I went to school, I got straight A's, I even got the gold!But Mommy, when I went to school that day,I never said good-bye,I'm sorry Mommy, I had to go, But Mommy, please don't cry.When Johnny shot the gun, He hit me and another,And all because Johnny, Got the gun from his older brother.Mommy, please tell Daddy; That I love him very much,And please tell Trevor; my boyfriend; That it wasn't just a crush.And tell my little sister; That she is the only one now,And tell my dear sweet grandmother; I'll be waiting for her now,And tell my wonderful friends; That they always were the best;Mommy, I'm not the first, I'm no better than the rest.Mommy, tell my teachers; I won't show up for class,And never to forget this, And please don't let this pass.Mommy, why'd it have to be me? No one deserves this,Mommy, warn the others, Mommy I left without a kiss.And Mommy tell the doctors; I know they really did try,I think I even saw a doctor, Trying not to cry.Mommy, I'm slowly dying, With a bullet in my chest,But Mommy please remember, I'm in heaven with the rest.Mommy I ran as fast as I could,When I heard that crack, Mommy, listen to me if you would,I wanted to go to college, I wanted to try things that were new,I guess I'm not going with Daddy, On that trip to the new zoo.I wanted to get married, I wanted to have a kid,I wanted to be an actress, Mommy, I wanted to live.But Mommy I must go now, The time is getting late,Mommy, tell my Trevor, I'm sorry but I had to cancel the date.I love you Mommy, I always have, I know; you know it's true,And Mommy all I wanted to say is, "Mommy, I love you."****In Memory of The Columbine Students Who Were Lost****Please if you would,Pass this around,I'd be happy if you could,Don't smash this on the ground.If you pass this on,Maybe people will cry,Just keep this in your heart,For the people who didn't get to say "Good-bye"

Hope Part II

I stay up late thinking of one person I care so much about that there are no words to describe what this person makes me feel. At times I feel him so close and yet he is so far away. The fact that he is willing to look past the physical is a huge suprise to me because I haven't come across anyone like him before. He is truely one of kind I fill an empty space deep within my soul and everytime I hear his voice I can't help but smile.

In loving memory of Marcos N. Flores 3-10-09

God looked around His garden and He found an empty place, He then looked upon this earth and saw your tired face. He put His arms around you and lifted you to rest God's garden must be beautiful for He always takes the best. He knew that you were suffering and He knew that you were in pain, He knew that you would never get well on earth again. He saw the road was getting rough and the hills were hard to climb, so He close your weary eyes and whispered "peace be thine." It broke our hearts to lose you but you did not go alone, for parts of us went with you the day God called you home

View of a person

Life can be good for a while but everything can start going bad in a second. You might feel like you know someone well enough but then you will be suprise what you can find out about that person just by talking to someone close to them. The things that you find out changes how you see that person.

What friends had to say about me

Elizabeth is such a great person that has been through alot. She deserves the best in the future and out of life. She's sweet, friendly and outgoing. She tries her best and never quits. We all Love her for many reasons that words can't explain!!! Written by Julie(one of your sisters that truly cares and knows you well) Love you!!!!!

What you been up to? We did it we're finally getting hell hole. Well take care of yourself. Hope we see each other after high school - Omar

Be the best at what ever you do ,don't just try achieve greatness & be remembered like a sister to me call & I'll be there. -Awar Limon

Hey sis,What it do it's your boy Vince well we made it we are going to graduate and be on our way to start our lives well I'am glad I meet you and I love you - vince

What's good Lizzy, It has been knowing you and I hope you are sucessful in life. I would never forget when I saw you perform on t.v, in Ms. Dron's class. It was one of the best that I have ever seen Stay cool and sweet with your awsome personality-Sean Cook

Lizzy sweety, I love you more than words can describe your the best friend I could have and I'm going to miss you -Dylan
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My Disablilty

This blog is for my readers that want to know a little bit more about my disablity Cerebral Palsy.There are different types of Cerebral Palsy my is known as Spastic Cerebral Palsy.Quadriplegia or tetraplegia is involvement of both arms and both legs, generally worse in the legs than in the arms

Spastic Cerebral Palsy

Spastic cerebral palsy is by far the most common and is present in approximately 75 percent of all children with cerebral palsy. Spasticity is described as a velocity-dependent resistance to passive movement. This means that the faster you pull against a muscle, the harder it resists or pulls back. Spastic cerebral palsy is divided into diplegic, hemiplegic and quadriplegic/tetraplegic types. Diplegia shows an involvement of legs more than the arms and is the most common type of cerebral palsy. Many times the arms do not seem involved but exhibit at least small deficits in function. Hemiplegia is involvement of the arm and leg on the same side. Classically the arm is more involved but sometimes they seem equally involved. Quadriplegia or tetraplegia is involvement of both arms and both legs, generally worse in the legs than in the arms. In spastic cerebral palsy there are generally signs of upper motor-neuron involvement with increased muscle reflexes, upgoing toes and persistence of primitive reflexes such as the Moro response

Thoughts for the Holidays by Scotty

If you lost somebody this year you asked yourself "why me?", "why did he or she passed away?", "what should i do now?", where do I go from here. you may think it's not ok to enjoy the holidays but it really is. Enjoying the holidays doesn't mean you forgot about them or that you love them any less. I know this because this holiday season is going to be hard for me because this is the first holiday season without my grand mother. My grand mother passed away Friday June 20, 2008. Now since my grandmother passed away my life feels empty. I hope everyone has a great and a safe holiday season. RIP MOM WEDNESDAY APRIL 14, 1999. .RIP NANA FRIDAY JUNE 20, 2008

A dream come true

I have meet someone who is wonderful towards me this person always makes me feel so special I feel like there a reason from this person being in my life. I see this is as blessing thanks to him my out look on life has grown before now my out look on life was small but thanks to him and other people having more faith in me now I feel like the sky is the limit for me