Confuse Part 2

I been through hell and back. I know life is not easy but, it seems like everyday am going through something.  There are times that I feel like an outsider in my own family.
 So many things were said to me that hurt me and the pain is still fresh as it's ever been. I sit here confuse because I have no idea what my family wants out of me cause it seem to me like anything that I do is good for them. I guess that is what it is I just remind myself that am doing it for me not for my family. I just don't feel wanted in this family.

when is it enough

I often wonder how can you be in a relationship and feel like that relationship is hurting you rather then helping you become a better person. why is it that some people don't want to see throught thier partner eyes. I guess in life I NEVER really had someone to care for me as this person who shall remain nameless dose but, I feel like we spend most our time fighting then anything else. I understand that he wants to be helpful but sometimes I think he over dose it. There are times that I wonder how did i let myself get cought up in something like this ? How can i help this person relize how what he dose affect me ?

confuse

Life is full of ups and downs sometimes you may feel as thought nothing in your life is going the way you would like for things to be going. There are times were you might think to yourself " This it I can't take this any more" You begin to think about what can you do to slove your issue. Many ideas come to mind but a big question is left in your after you have done all your thinking

"CAN I DO IT ALONE?"

LOVE OR LUST

I don’t know why, but my love for him has not left my heart. The harder I try to love someone the way I loved him, My heart has made clear to me that I shouldn’t let any one to take his place in my heart. I often wonder why did he pull himself away from me? Memories of us keep playing in my head.
I don’t know what it is about his voice that relaxes me. When we had someone new in our lives I couldn’t help but wonder if he was truly happy without me in his life. Since he didn’t tell me why he didn’t why he was leaving me I couldn’t help but wonder for two years. During these two year I thought I could forget all about him. I don’t know how he found me but, he did.
When I heard his voice after two year all of the memories of the good times we had come back to me. Now we have started to talk to each other again. My heart is telling me to give him another chance but my mind is telling me not to give him another chance.
“ What should I do?”