Hard times

It has not been easy for me. I have had so many changes happen over the last few months.I have been trying my hardest to keep my feeling under control. I feel like I have lost a really good friend.I feel like he was my spiritual support. Now I have been trying to see if I can reconnect with him. I am not really having much luck with that. Losing a love one is not easy everyone knows that. I have lost my farther which was not the easy thing for me to handle. I am still struggling with til this day. I am sure that this is always going to be a hard thing for me to come to terms with. I still catch myself breakdown over it. I know most people see me as the girl who always has a smile on her face. Smiling is just my way of hiding all the pain. I am truly grateful for those who have been there for through all of this.

I have been getting out a lot more now. I have some good experience I have been apart of Ms. Wheelchair Texas. I never saw myself being a part of something like this. Over all I am glad I did it. Well I guess I am done blogging for tonight. I hope you all have a bless night.

Changes

As life goes on things changes. Some changes I have taking and embrace it. Others have hurt me to my core. I know that I have not written on here in a long time. I have been going through so many changes in ever aspect of my young life. I have lost a love one that I was close to. I have been hurt by those closet to me.

There is times where I think what more do I have to do for people to be happy with the person that I becoming. I am happy with the person that I have becoming. Despite what I have been told by many I keep moving forward because it not good for me to get depress.  I just supress my pain and keep moving  on. 

So many people in our lives don't even realize the harm they cause to their  love ones. As for my dating life It have had it up and down. I always wonder to myself  if I could find someone who will understand me.

Advice

So may people walk in and out of our lives. It is hard to forget them when we have been through hell and back with them. We can not allow them to have control over us any more. once The words ''WE'RE DONE"are said then the healing process begins. If  you are trying to forget about them then just remind yourself of all the bad things they done to you. I know it sound werid but it works. Sometime God takes you through trouble to show you what prizes he has in store for you. On this earth there are those who don't seek  some reward for helping others they just do because it makes them feel good. If some one acts like a child and it drives you carzy then it show you that you and that person are at different ponints in your lives.

Reality is pain

In life you meet that person you can see yourself spend the rest of your life with. You and that person go through up and downs. Even though you both hurt each other that love that you have for each other is as strong as it has ever been. What do you do when you know that the one you love is relationship with someone else? What reaction are suppose to have when you are told that he/she won't be telling the other person exactly how he/she feels? Is it possible to love two people at the same time? You end a relationship your were in. You lose a friend that will never talk to you again. The questions that you ask yourself are "Was it worth it?"and "Dose this person relize how much I love them?"

Love you

We have had are ups and downs. I can't deny what my heart feels for you. you are always on my mind.We have hurt each otherbut, all has been forgiven. Everything that I have told up til this day was true.I sit in my room missing you and just going through all of our memories. It just hurts me knowing that you are in a relationship.

You were there when I need you the most .I remember that night I called you in tears after I had been hit by my farther for coming home late.You always would find a way to make me smile even though I didn't want to.You still tell me that Love me.I am truely sorry that I cause so much pain. I guess if you are truly happy in the relationship that your in now I will accept it even thought it kills me.