Enough pain

When do you know when a relationship or a friendship is over??? I don't think anyone really has an answer to this question. In relationship there are a few lines that should not be crossed. Once they are crossed and damage is done it is going to take a good while for that damage to be repaired. Other time you just need to let that person  go because they might of been meant to be in your life for a short time. Never given them one  ounce of satisfaction. I just want to thank those who have stood by me through my hard times. It's time for me to move on. 

Mixed Emotion

 It is a new year I am trying my hardest to move on from all the bad things done to me which for those of you read this and are close to me know what I mean. I am truly grateful to those of  my few good friends that have stuck by my side even though some of you are miles away. I find myself having to look at some people in my life twice. There are times that I want to truly hate some people but, deep down something in me never allow my hate come out.

I am bless to have the values that have because if I didn't I would not have the will power to go on. I have thought about ending my life so many times. The emotion pain has been hard to let go. I know that those who have passed on are watching over me. I love and miss them all. All I can do now is continue to move froward and hope for the best for my family and myself.

Hard times

It has not been easy for me. I have had so many changes happen over the last few months.I have been trying my hardest to keep my feeling under control. I feel like I have lost a really good friend.I feel like he was my spiritual support. Now I have been trying to see if I can reconnect with him. I am not really having much luck with that. Losing a love one is not easy everyone knows that. I have lost my farther which was not the easy thing for me to handle. I am still struggling with til this day. I am sure that this is always going to be a hard thing for me to come to terms with. I still catch myself breakdown over it. I know most people see me as the girl who always has a smile on her face. Smiling is just my way of hiding all the pain. I am truly grateful for those who have been there for through all of this.

I have been getting out a lot more now. I have some good experience I have been apart of Ms. Wheelchair Texas. I never saw myself being a part of something like this. Over all I am glad I did it. Well I guess I am done blogging for tonight. I hope you all have a bless night.

Changes

As life goes on things changes. Some changes I have taking and embrace it. Others have hurt me to my core. I know that I have not written on here in a long time. I have been going through so many changes in ever aspect of my young life. I have lost a love one that I was close to. I have been hurt by those closet to me.

There is times where I think what more do I have to do for people to be happy with the person that I becoming. I am happy with the person that I have becoming. Despite what I have been told by many I keep moving forward because it not good for me to get depress.  I just supress my pain and keep moving  on. 

So many people in our lives don't even realize the harm they cause to their  love ones. As for my dating life It have had it up and down. I always wonder to myself  if I could find someone who will understand me.

Advice

So may people walk in and out of our lives. It is hard to forget them when we have been through hell and back with them. We can not allow them to have control over us any more. once The words ''WE'RE DONE"are said then the healing process begins. If  you are trying to forget about them then just remind yourself of all the bad things they done to you. I know it sound werid but it works. Sometime God takes you through trouble to show you what prizes he has in store for you. On this earth there are those who don't seek  some reward for helping others they just do because it makes them feel good. If some one acts like a child and it drives you carzy then it show you that you and that person are at different ponints in your lives.