Mental Health

Mental health is something that should be talked about openly. I am well aware that in most communities there is a stigma surrounding mental health. 

As many of you know that I have battled with my mental health for a while now. Just last month I reached out to my healthcare insurance to seek more help for myself because I felt that I needed more help than just medication. 

I have been speaking with a psychologist for the past weeks. I have learned that the people in my life affect my mental health. 

What  I would like people in my life, family, and friends to understand is that what happens in my relationship with each and everyone affects me mentally. I am sure that I don't need to mention that as a human race we are social creatures. 

Those of you that don't understand I am a person that enjoys being around others and when is comes to a romantic dating relationship you would that that I would shy away from dating because of what I witness between or because of my disability, NEWS FLASH!!! we all deserve to be HAPPY.  

One thing that I have just learn in the last two days is that if you are the only one working on your friendship or relationship you have to ask yourself if the other person wants and is showing interest in you and your life if the answer is no then its time to let go.

Dating and religion

This is something that I have been dealing with lately. I have been told that your dating relationship should glorify God and there are some boundaries that God gives his people.

  Spiritual  Relationship Principle  

• Be considerate of one another. Do not be a stumbling block 1 corinthians 10:32-33
• Go on dates with doubles; home before midnight; Dress appropriately
• Be absolutely pure -Ephesians 5:3/ 1 Timothy 5:2 
• Get Advice- Proverbs 19:2/19:20   

  Here is something that I want you to think about this as you are reading this most person with a disability get help from the government so along with that comes some guidelines that we have to adhere to when working in order to keep out finical and health befits giving to us by the government. Now I know most of you know but if you don't I am a woman who is physically disabled. I have been disabled my whole life. I have always believed and still do believe in God. I am currently in a dating relationship with a man who is also physically disabled. Now you all are wondering why am mentioning this?  Before I have people commenting and saying that there is no exception to what parts of God's instructions I as his daughter shouldn't follow. I want you all to keep in mind that no two walks with God would look the same. Now for those of you who don't have anyone in your life with a physical disability life can be more challenging. I have been blessed in the sense that I am mentally able to learn and think for myself and the same for my boyfriend.  Now to give you a bit a background Me and my boyfriend meet in college, we dated one year and then took a break for a year because he wanted to grow spiritually which happen in 2017 Then a year later he decides to ask me to be his girlfriend again in 2018. We have now been disciples for three years and we have been dating while being followers of Jesus for two years. I have the desire to someday be married.    

What  I struggle with when it comes to my faith and my dating relationship is that I have been told by other believers is that before my dating relationship moves to the next stages is that there needs to be finical stability which I understand why is said but I also wish the actual reality of what my life is like is taking into account. It is a challenge to get employed but, that doesn't mean that I stop looking for a job. I have been told that I am not able to drive so that means that I would have to use public transportation to get around. I wonder how is that someone who has a physical disability gets finical stable. when we are looked we are atomically judged just on our physical appearance and not given a chance to showcase our skills?  

 

Dating

Dating someone else who is disabled is a breath of fresh air for me. I don't have to hide my struggles with them. This new guy who is dating is amazing to start off him and I do go to church together which for me is something that I can admire because not only can I developed a physical dating relationship but we can also grow together spiritually. He most of the time keeps a smile on my face. We often get stared at just because of our physical appearance. It does drive me crazy most of the time but at the end of the day, he makes me happy. I love being around him. He is a lot more reserved then I am. I firmly believe that God brought us together for a reason. when he told me about his past I cried. Every time we are together I just want to be there for him as much as he allows me to be. I do see a future with him despite what everyone thinks.

As everyone knows dating is difficult, now trying to see for a person was a disability. I can say that one of the biggest fears of mine is someone going to want to be with me because they feel bad for me. 

Part One of my spiritual life

It is never easy to not be hurt by others actions and words.  I think that the closer someone is to you or the more you allow someone into you life the more chances they are given to hurt you.
 Depending  on lifestyle and personal beliefs that is the way you are going to view and go through hard times. I know for me  I could easily let my emotions drive my mental state. Over the last year I have been challenge spiritually.

As long as I can remember  religion was introduce to me by my grandparents on both side of my family. I found myself just going with the flow not going against anything that I was being taught in the various  "churches" that I  was being taken to because of course as a child we are taught to obey our parents or anyone who is older than us. I notice that what we were being taught in Church was not being applied in real life so I  thought that "Hey can go to church and still be the same person.

When I came into my late teenage years. I felt like something was missing  in my life so I ask my neighbor if I could go to church with her and then I became a member of the church. Month later I ask the pastor of the church If she would do me the honor of baptize me.
   
So weeks later I was baptize.

Revealing pain beginning

When you spend time alone you think of life.
I find it hard not to think of the reality of what my life is. I know it is difficult for those around me to fully understand what I try my best to explain with out making it sound like I want pity. The simple fact is that I try my best to develop friendship between myself and others I don't let people in. The reason why is because I have so many scars from everything I have been through. The few people who are close to me know all my battles.