Part One of my spiritual life

It is never easy to not be hurt by others actions and words.  I think that the closer someone is to you or the more you allow someone into you life the more chances they are given to hurt you.
 Depending  on lifestyle and personal beliefs that is the way you are going to view and go through hard times. I know for me  I could easily let my emotions drive my mental state. Over the last year I have been challenge spiritually.

As long as I can remember  religion was introduce to me by my grandparents on both side of my family. I found myself just going with the flow not going against anything that I was being taught in the various  "churches" that I  was being taken to because of course as a child we are taught to obey our parents or anyone who is older than us. I notice that what we were being taught in Church was not being applied in real life so I  thought that "Hey can go to church and still be the same person.

When I came into my late teenage years. I felt like something was missing  in my life so I ask my neighbor if I could go to church with her and then I became a member of the church. Month later I ask the pastor of the church If she would do me the honor of baptize me.
   
So weeks later I was baptize.

Revealing pain beginning

When you spend time alone you think of life.
I find it hard not to think of the reality of what my life is. I know it is difficult for those around me to fully understand what I try my best to explain with out making it sound like I want pity. The simple fact is that I try my best to develop friendship between myself and others I don't let people in. The reason why is because I have so many scars from everything I have been through. The few people who are close to me know all my battles.

Outcast

It it very rare when people are honest with me. I feel like am losing honest friendship. Am often told that am to emotional and am to over dramatic.

Here is a tip for everyone people with disabilities are part of society to. Don't treat us like we don't matter. If you don't know how to interact with people who have disabilities Don't be sacred to ask questions.

Evening prayer

God I know it's late but I know you always listening I first want to thank for the blessings that you given me as well as my spiritual family. I lift up all my sisters to you please help them find comfort in you and your word. Keep all my spiritual family as well as my physical family in your loving arms. I hope that my grandpa and dad are proud of the women am becoming. Continue to soften Pedro heart gentle reminder him that regardless of what anyone says or does you are the only one who has the last saying.
                                    Amen

Morning Prayer

God, I come to you to ask that you give all your daughters any blessing you deem appropriate for them at this point in their life. I ask that you help me not to be afraid to let my spiritual sisters see my raw heart for what it actually is. Help my recovery from any misunderstanding or hurt that I may have caused to a sister or brother. I also pray that you open the minds of those that want to get to know you. God, I pray for my brothers that you help them to be the best sons for you. Please give Pedro the mental and emotional strength to go through any hardship that he may be facing. As for my brother, Jay reminds him that you will guide him to the place where you have set for him that only he can fill.