It has been a while since I have written anything. Right now I am feeling different emotions. The main two are hurt and confused. I was baptize last year in August. Along with the happiest of that I tried to tell myself that I was ok with the way things ended with my romantic relationship but the reality is that I wasn't. I dealt with it the best way I could and after a while I was ok. Every one in my spiritual family kept saying that I just need to be patient. Which has been a true test for me. I know for most people in my spiritual family it's not easy to understand why it seems like am putting a person before God. All I have ever done is be the caring and loving person god bless me to be. As for the romantic relationship I feel like I have to hide how I feel because no one understands. Dating is different for me cause of my disability and now my faith. I think to myself am I going to be good enough for a future husband. I do have faith in God I always have. Is it bad that I want a relationship?
