Outcast

It it very rare when people are honest with me. I feel like am losing honest friendship. Am often told that am to emotional and am to over dramatic.

Here is a tip for everyone people with disabilities are part of society to. Don't treat us like we don't matter. If you don't know how to interact with people who have disabilities Don't be sacred to ask questions.

Evening prayer

God I know it's late but I know you always listening I first want to thank for the blessings that you given me as well as my spiritual family. I lift up all my sisters to you please help them find comfort in you and your word. Keep all my spiritual family as well as my physical family in your loving arms. I hope that my grandpa and dad are proud of the women am becoming. Continue to soften Pedro heart gentle reminder him that regardless of what anyone says or does you are the only one who has the last saying.
                                    Amen

Morning Prayer

God, I come to you to ask that you give all your daughters any blessing you deem appropriate for them at this point in their life. I ask that you help me not to be afraid to let my spiritual sisters see my raw heart for what it actually is. Help my recovery from any misunderstanding or hurt that I may have caused to a sister or brother. I also pray that you open the minds of those that want to get to know you. God, I pray for my brothers that you help them to be the best sons for you. Please give Pedro the mental and emotional strength to go through any hardship that he may be facing. As for my brother, Jay reminds him that you will guide him to the place where you have set for him that only he can fill.

My current Reality

I have noticed that for most people that have given me advice have tried their best to understand but the reality is that they don't fully understand. When I just think about the journey I have taken I can't help but let the tears flow, for those of you who don't know they are more than welcome to read past blogs.

Me unmasked

Sometimes I just think I need to take a step back and just look at everything that I been through. I have people questioning my spiritual life. People worship god different. I hope and pray that god keeps people that mean a lot to me in my life. I have never been one to hold back my feelings. But, these past couple of months have been so painful and I have just been going through the motions of everything. God has blessed me with a loving heart. It has been broken. God please help me be the best version of me I can be.