Hard times

It has not been easy for me. I have had so many changes happen over the last few months.I have been trying my hardest to keep my feeling under control. I feel like I have lost a really good friend.I feel like he was my spiritual support. Now I have been trying to see if I can reconnect with him. I am not really having much luck with that. Losing a love one is not easy everyone knows that. I have lost my farther which was not the easy thing for me to handle. I am still struggling with til this day. I am sure that this is always going to be a hard thing for me to come to terms with. I still catch myself breakdown over it. I know most people see me as the girl who always has a smile on her face. Smiling is just my way of hiding all the pain. I am truly grateful for those who have been there for through all of this.

I have been getting out a lot more now. I have some good experience I have been apart of Ms. Wheelchair Texas. I never saw myself being a part of something like this. Over all I am glad I did it. Well I guess I am done blogging for tonight. I hope you all have a bless night.

Changes

As life goes on things changes. Some changes I have taking and embrace it. Others have hurt me to my core. I know that I have not written on here in a long time. I have been going through so many changes in ever aspect of my young life. I have lost a love one that I was close to. I have been hurt by those closet to me.

There is times where I think what more do I have to do for people to be happy with the person that I becoming. I am happy with the person that I have becoming. Despite what I have been told by many I keep moving forward because it not good for me to get depress.  I just supress my pain and keep moving  on. 

So many people in our lives don't even realize the harm they cause to their  love ones. As for my dating life It have had it up and down. I always wonder to myself  if I could find someone who will understand me.