Reality is pain

In life you meet that person you can see yourself spend the rest of your life with. You and that person go through up and downs. Even though you both hurt each other that love that you have for each other is as strong as it has ever been. What do you do when you know that the one you love is relationship with someone else? What reaction are suppose to have when you are told that he/she won't be telling the other person exactly how he/she feels? Is it possible to love two people at the same time? You end a relationship your were in. You lose a friend that will never talk to you again. The questions that you ask yourself are "Was it worth it?"and "Dose this person relize how much I love them?"

Love you

We have had are ups and downs. I can't deny what my heart feels for you. you are always on my mind.We have hurt each otherbut, all has been forgiven. Everything that I have told up til this day was true.I sit in my room missing you and just going through all of our memories. It just hurts me knowing that you are in a relationship.

You were there when I need you the most .I remember that night I called you in tears after I had been hit by my farther for coming home late.You always would find a way to make me smile even though I didn't want to.You still tell me that Love me.I am truely sorry that I cause so much pain. I guess if you are truly happy in the relationship that your in now I will accept it even thought it kills me.

Confuse Part 2

I been through hell and back. I know life is not easy but, it seems like everyday am going through something.  There are times that I feel like an outsider in my own family.
 So many things were said to me that hurt me and the pain is still fresh as it's ever been. I sit here confuse because I have no idea what my family wants out of me cause it seem to me like anything that I do is good for them. I guess that is what it is I just remind myself that am doing it for me not for my family. I just don't feel wanted in this family.